why i've been so distant from everything opening up about my physical health
Health is a very touchy subject with me. Considering I am the biggest baby when coming to doctors hospitals etc... But its time for me to finally grow up and get help. Don't take it wrong I've been trying and will continue but being 18 on your own no family and living where we have the worst health insurance system possibly its not easy. Yes I'm am so grateful its free due to my broke ass (yet i work full time pay rent, phone, so much more) but i just wish it would run a little smoother. Yes beggars cant be choosers or what ever that expression means now a days but being extremely sick and blacking out few times a week/ month is terrifying. Mini seizure episodes or just straight dropping dead then randomly coming to or on top of that my throat and teeth being eaten away from stomach acid (panic attacks all day every day gotta love it) I feel as if i am slowly falling apart as i try and build this new life. My health feels like its even take its toll on my relationship. My l