My life the past years.
During my high school years, while this blog was started, I was struggling with several demons I kept hidden. Addiction overtook my life; I was using copious amounts of street drugs to self-medicate. I started using at the age of fourteen. Introduced to them during a physically and sexually abusive relationship with a man four years older than myself. Not only did the drugs keep me quiet during these encounters, but they also allowed me to escape from my history of domestic abuse from my biological father during my upbringing. I was raised to believe that a woman's worth was established by what men thought of them and how they were treated accordingly. Abuse was thought to be normal, let alone expected in my life. From broken ribs to empty words and promises to do better. "I'm sorry, you just made me so angry..." swarmed my head constantly. Evolving into changing myself consistently to fit the mold of a woman who wouldn't anger the beast to see its wrath. My perso...