For you...

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I’m writing this as an I’m sorry... I’ve deleted a lot of content on this blog. As I continue my journey with growing up I see my mind and thoughts evolving. I feel my maturity brewing but still my inner child blossoming. I’m 18 just graduated high school I work full time plus about to start college. A girl wanting it all... but I still have those hard times. A storm about to burst along the Oceanside and I just gotta ride the waves. I really miss writing I miss the world I miss you my reader. Yes I’m a small micro blog on the internet but every single one of you mean a great deal to me. I hope to make you proud or at least not be seen as a waste of time. I miss the person I was a long time ago but I’m falling madly in love with the person I am today. My life is one big beautiful mess and so will this blog be. I will write whatever entraps my mind or whatever feeling I wish to convey. Please Subscribe with your email or add me on google to keep up to date. With all love I can give you through this screen thank you.... 

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