Is marriage the end game?

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Dating has become a costume to everyday life. But what does this actually do for us? We use people to fill our emptiness in our lives, date for a while then get bored and move on. I’m a hopeless romantic who is madly in love with a man (my gorgeous boyfriend). But living in today’s society many no longer believe in love and mainly just use lust. But I want romance that quote on quote “old school love” but is that to much to ask. Yes I’m still so young and have so many years ahead of me, but what if he’s the one. Do I waste another 10 years of this waiting until the right time to finally think about marriage because getting married so young is looked down apon. When I think about the ideals of marriage my mind takes me back to my childhood. My grandparents Nanny & Pa, my mothers parents. They were insufferable till the end, my grandmother married him right after graduating high school at the age of 18. My grandfather wasn’t quiet yet 21, he was a radar  technician in the United States Navy. Funny story back then in Chicago, Illinois if the man wasn’t 21 his parents had to consent to the marriage. Meaning my great grandmother signed for him. They had their ups and downs over the years but remained so in love. Once my grandmother past my grandfather couldn’t even last a year without her. When we lost her, we lost him also. I want a love so power that they are my everything. I want to get married, have children, and spend my life creating and giving love. Being 18 people see me as a baby not even knowing what this means. But I know what it is to love, to hold someone’s heart. Victor taught me this and I can’t help but think is this is? Is this what my grandparents felt ? Because when I wake up I want him, when I fall asleep I want to be by his side. I don’t even think or want anything else I want to love him till I die. But I’m so scared that being within this generation this dream with never happen. I finally fell in love now I don’t wanna let go. I thought I knew what love was but no it’s so powerful and amazing I can’t even describe it. Love is love. Timeless effortless magical and perfect in the ever so right way....

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