Holy shit I made friends

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I am happy to report that I Olivia Marie Addario have made friends and feel as i am stepping into my Carrie Bradshaw moment as i have found my Miranda, Charlot, and Samantha. My life feels like its finally finding its footing in this new adult world i was so rushed into. Opening up a little my anxiety around the subject of social interaction has been a challenge this year. Its been a learning experience coming to terms with new chapter. I'm all alone out here no family and no friends besides my mans (so i thought....) then my ass deiced to grow up go out and speak to people. Knowing i could be rejected at any given chance but with the universe on my side it all worked out. I'm sitting on my bed in my newly re-done living this movie blog writer moment aka i am Carrie Bradshaw i repeat. Sorry i just really love sex in the city but..... Girlllll I did my room up, we got the fairy lights and a canopy above my bed. Not to mention a tapestry of Mona Lisa smoking a joint pimped out with a munchies bar conveniently next to her with a baby vintage mini fridge. I put my skin care and snacks in that and it looks so good. If you are actually interested in my life follow my instagram for more mainly my photo shop adventures or real life ones (@aye.its.oli) And If I know you or we could vibe you can always ask for my snap. But back on track from my de-railed ass it actually worked out I've accomplished dope ass female friends like in the movies my life if finally getting there and i am so happy. Doesn't mean i don't have my other struggles but I'm proud of myself for taking those step forwards in recovery. Its hard to reach out in a society so "connected" yet so distant from each other. Where we can can come together to speak our minds and yet get so easily"triggered". Its just so nice to finally find people now my people who actually understand me and my life where its just us being us not characters to please or use just people growing old and being themselves together. I'm excited to see how everything plays out i hope the universe starts putting things more in my favor and i hope i get to live my sex in the city dreams out or maybe friends (cough cough anything basic white girl lol). Life is so weird sending you all my good vibes through the screen... much love Oli   
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